Challenges...

Being a mom is hard. Being a mom to more than one child is extremely hard. I am having a difficult time being a mother to 2 kids. How do people have a lot of kids... like 2+ ? I am really struggling with giving 100% to each child. Before Molly, whenever Paisley needed something or wanted to play or read a book or whatever, I was there. It was her and I. Everyday. We did whatever she wanted, no questions asked. And once in a while I could talk her into letting me clean my house. She had my undivided attention. But things changed. Permanently. We had another baby. Her name is Molly. Cutest little chubby baby in the world with a smile that melts my heart. So just when I thought I knew what being a mom was all about, I have another child and realize I have no idea what in thee heck I'm doing. How do I drag my tired body out of bed to go turn on Clifford the big red dog and get a go-gurt for Paisley when I've been up feeding a newborn during the night? How do I do it without losing my patience when all the sudden she decides she wants a "green" go-gurt, not a pink one. Well, I just do it. There isn't an option. I'm the one who decided to have children. Heavenly Father trusted me enough with 2 of his precious spirits. I owe it to these girls to do the best I can. It's not easy. It's never going to be easy. So I have to figure out a way to do it, rather than dwell on how hard it is. I'm given 24 hours in a day. What I do with those 24 hours is all up to me. I have a newborn that needs me every 3 hours so she can eat. I have a 2 year old that needs me to get her food on the table, get her dressed, do her hair, change her bum, read her stories, play follow the leader and hide n' seek. But I still have a newborn that needs me to change her bum, bathe her, talk to her, hold her, make her smile, comfort her, and help her fall asleep. But... my 2 year old needs me to give her a bedtime snack, read scriptures, say prayers, read the hippo book and bath time book, and sing her not one, but 2 songs...
Not only do my kids need me, but I have a husband that needs me as well. All 3 of these special people in my life need me. They all need a clean house, food to eat and clothes to wear. So just how can I give 100% to each person individually? That is something I don't know the answer to. Something I try to figure out every day. Maybe I should get up in the morning before everyone else and get ready for the day. Take some time to read my scriptures and say my prayers to help get me going on the right track. It would give me a spiritual boost. Maybe that would help me feel more confident as a wife, mother, daughter and friend. I know realistically this won't happen, not everyday anyway. I'll keep trying harder everyday to be everything to these 3 special people in my life. I'll start tonight with a good nights rest. Or a good rest until it's time to feed my precious Molly.